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I have always had to follow my own pathway. Succeed or Fail. Failure is just what can I learn from it? Get ready to try again. Sometimes it has taken me a long, long time to try again, but try again I do.
Then there are the soul's dark nights to deal with. I will get into these as I go along. The traumatic events that we all go through, like it or not. These are far from easy and leave dramatic imprints. It does present the opportunity to do a lot of healing and learning. Have I learnt what I need to learn from the whole ordeal? So that it doesn't happen again. Not easy. As these surface stay with the deep heavy energy and just observe and unconditionally love and compassion for that damaged part of self. It is to do it when it comes up in the feelings and emotions. Can only be done in layers. These memories are painless. The pain was at the moments in time when the damage happened. You need to be determined to heal as much as possible, so as to be a much better you. I follow my Heart, Universal Unconditional Brotherly and Sisterly Love/Light, compassion - Universal Law and Cosmic Law and Natures Laws to the best of my ability from my own perception and observation point in the human circle or sphere one finds self in. We are all unique and equal. We are all one on two paths - Dark and Light
It is to pass the initiation(s) presented during the Dark Nights of the Soul. Or should I say, do our best and learn from our mistakes.
This one really began in 1966. My dad died in June 66. I had contact for 10 days after that. Every day on the way home from work a light would noticeably fill the car and I felt his presence.
Then came a love affair in the Summer of Love, 1967. It was real pure Love going two ways. The relationship didn't last long and I was devastated. Took me a long time to come to grips with that one. We do chat from time to time.
The work a day jobs lead me into the computer software business. I was on the ground floor and learnt how to program the 360-20s on the sixth one installed in Montreal. By the summer of 69 I was a Consultant on the road installing applications into different companies for one of the first data centers that popped up allowing smaller companies to have their applications computerized.
In 71-72 I worked for a company owned by three partners. This data center went broke and they sold probably 51% to a multi Billionaire. This fellow bought another computer business and merged the two together in the same building. Now there was lots of money around. As one fellow told me, you just need to catch his coat tail.
Now this company was in the situations where partners were fighting for control and the money. They believed that they couldn't make the money without me. They firmly believed this as I now know long after it all played out. I was in meetings for three, four hours once or twice a day. Each side wanted me to cut the other side out. Even brunch meetings on a Sunday morning. hehehe - A real pressure pot indeed!!
Took awhile, but I finally realized that in their minds I was the money and in a very real sense it was true, because this dude had 100s of companies on the Stock Exchanges. That is a lot of business potential sitting right there. Millions
I found out under extreme pressure that I could not team up with either side against the other. This led me to one day, sitting in my office, I got up and walked across the computer room and out the front door, along to the next door which lead into the upstairs. I walked across the open room into one of the partners offices, sat down and said; "I am one phone call away from one million dollars." He took his phone book and put the number in front of me and then handed me the phone. I picked it up and dialed the dude's number.
This is what I will label as, his red phone. Not everyone has the number. The phone rang once ... twice ... The first ring got his attention, the second stilled his mind with the type of question; "Who is calling?" as he reached for the phone. I picked up his psychic energy signature before the third ring. I slammed the phone down, got up and walked back down stairs. The depth of evil goes way beyond words - A Beast - A totally dispicable evil beast.
That was the end of that. Took me three months to leave that company and work for another one and walk towards the day that I came home and put that suit and tie and shoes in the garbage can for good. I was now much freer from all the corruption which I was started to see everywhere, except a few business I did work for.
This was the main trigger that was part of a chain of events that changed my expression into the outer world completely. I am very happy and grateful for the awakening by walking through the dark night of the soul - A Blessing Indeed -
In 1969 my oldest boy was born. He was sick for two and a half years. Doctor after doctor and emergency ward vistis. Summed up; sick for ten days, ok for ten days. No cure. It was Mom who decided to try health food, organic. instead of the regular store chemically poisoned food stuffs. Thirty days later he was fine. He wasn't sick anymore. This experience ended my belief that our medical system can cure much at all. Kind of obvious these days.
Another distraction was living on the bottom floor of a four plex made of match sticks. Four families, upstairs against the downstairs. Bowling Balls thrown on the floor at 2am. hehehe - lots of loud music with the base turned up - In other words a bunch of adults acting worse than two and three year old's having a bad day in the sandbox.
It all ended over night. Peace and quite instead of total chaos.
I remember a six week period in 1973 while working a quite job, I would get up every Sunday morning and look out the window at the street. My perception had noticable changed and how I felt about the neighborhood I was living in. A completely transformed experience.
[ A Lone Wolf ]