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My Mother was a Catholic and my Dad was a Protestant. We went to Catholic School. I enjoyed grade one till the day I returned after Christmas break. I remember walking into the class room and seeing hell, fire and damnation drawn all over the blackboard in colored chock. I can still clearly see the devil and his pitch fork in the red flames of hell. I took 3 steps backwards in shock! That was the moment it ended as I now know from looking backwards within my own self. Now the nuns acted just like devils.
In my experience and perspective it got more and more ridiculous as the years went by. I missed most of grade two and all of grade three due to illness. They put me in grade 4 when I went back. This is where the catholic laymen took over teaching the boys. The girls stayed with the nuns.
They would march back and forth with their black capes and oak yard stick pointers frothing at the mouth like vultures ready for the kill. Everyday, each subject had a test. If you failed it, you got 5 hard wacks on each hand with a fifteen inch oak ruler. Since I refused to conform and rarely if ever did my homework, which put me in this situation most days. It was 100% my own choice on how to deal with this schools situation and environment.
I got lucky in grade seven because the teacher was a family friend, so I didn't get hit or whacked. The rest of the students got smacked and whacked.
The second time in grade eight was when it changed. Now the students were old enough to fight back. Wrestling matches between a few students and the teacher was quite common. Right over the desks they would go and fight it out on the floor. This behavior slowed down in grade nine to a snails pace because the teachers were now getting the crap beat out of them. I remember one incident where the teacher told the student to step out into the hallway. Bang!! into the lockers goes the student. A short break and Bang!!, Bang!!, Bang!! Then the student walked back into class with his chest all puffed up and the teacher came back in all hung over looking all beat up. That one ended it for the rest of my years in High School.
This whole experience left me with zero use for religion and their behavior based on Jesus Christ. This is not in any way a bad rape on Christians who partake or belong to different Christian Churches. Same goes for all religions. I have had a lot of really good friends that belong to religions and churches. Awesome people!
Now on to the positive outcomes of all this.
In 1970 I got a book called; "The Story of Jesus Christ" by Edgar Cayce. This was a complete eye opener with a tremendous amount of depth. The whole story and other Cayce interpretations of the Bible made 100% sense within my own self and turned the light on This transformed my beliefs and attitudes towards Jesus Christ. This instilled the positive side and inner base in this story.
In 1973 when faced with a changing consciousness and all the stuff that was happening as this awakening was taking place, I had to decide on what pathway to follow for some needed inner safety. This is when I put Christ's Energy into my Heart and set my compass accordingly. Now I felt safe.
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Egypt St Macarius, originally founded during 4th century AD.
I much prefer this artistic drawing. The energy is so much more inspiring and uplifting which I find an important frequency to emulate his Love and Compassion into the world, instead of the misery and suffering frequency put out by Jesus on the cross. Just how I feel about it.
This inner safety net worked well and lead to the next part in this short story.
A Note: In late 1972 was the climax event of the dark night of the soul that had gone on for a number of years. The total destruction of all my dreams and most of what I believed to be true in the major areas of life. A total waist land needed foe a massive blessing and awakening to higher consciousness and a much happier me.
It was a Saturday night mid April 1974, when Natalia and I went to Jerry and Jill's place to have a spiritual discussion. Jerry and Jill were Pentecostal Christian. Jerry had gone to India and had some amazing awakening experiences while there which caused him to be more open minded about Religions and Spiritual Pathways. He carried a lot of Love and Light. The other couple who were born again Christians and lived next door and had expressed a desire to meet with Jerry and Jill, also came along. Six of us.
The evening rolled along and all was well till the born again Christians asked Jerry; "Don't you have to be a born again Christian to get to heaven?" Jerry, under pressure said yes while his body language exposed his lying. This sent my mind into total turmoil due to another couple, Bill and Jenny who lived two doors down, that were not into Religion at all. In fact they were looking for a couple to have an open marriage with. I do believe Jenny was into an affair at this time. The idea that these two would be locked out didn't sit well with me at all. The war raged within looking for the truth in a situation like this one.
On Sunday morning I had to pick up a mattress and this turmoil was still raging. I got back shortly after noon. Natalia and I headed over to see Bill and Jenny. On the way out the door we meet the born again Christians heading out to church. I also knew that Jerry and Jill were at their church as well. They were good friends.
The four of us decided to sit outside since it was sunny with some large clouds blowing by in the sky. Suddenly the whole energy changed and we were put into a very high vibration of Christ's Love and Christ's Light. The energy would build when it was sunny and drop off when the clouds covered the Sun. Many magical things happen during this time which seemed like an hour or two. A cloud would come over and block out the Sun. Jenny would get up and walk around laughing and the energy would drop down. Jenny would sit down as the Sun came back, The energy would build up really high. Many people came down the street that day and I saw tongues of fire over their heads and their faces lite up like light bulbs. This experience went well beyond words. Love, Joy and Laughter at it best and a lot of very insightful information was being gained and transferred during this experience. It ended when a storm blew in and the four of us ran and hid in the basement laughing our heads off.
The experience was so profound that we never really talked about it. A fear due to the magnitude and high strangeness, out of the box experience and possible ridicule from an attempt to say something about what is beyond words. Total Shock and Awe.
The four of us had to have had our own hearts in the right place and the compass properly set to be gifted with this experience. Each Heart had to be leading the way within each of the four life circumstance at that moment in time.
I have zero against good people no matter what their belief system is and nothing against Christians or other good people found in all religions, If it makes someone a better person - Bravo!!- I have never join any church, religion or spiritual group of any kind. I just don't fit in to any of them at all and the inborn determination to walk my own pathway anyway. After all, in the end, each of us, as individuals all have to face the consequences of our own beliefs and life's choices anyway. And, You, like Me, have been there going through 100% of our own individual life and no one else has. This is true for everyone.
[ A Lone Wolf ]