 Astrology 
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I have always had to follow my own pathway. Succeed or Fail. Failure is just what can I learn from it? Get ready to try again. Sometimes it has taken me a long, long time to try again, but I do. Then there are the soul's dark nights to deal with. I will get into these as I go along. The traumatic events that we all go through, like it or not. These are far from easy and leave dramatic imprints. It does present the opportunity to do a lot of healing and learning. Have I learnt what I need to learn from the whole ordeal? So that it doesn't happen again. Not easy. I have learnt and taught myself to maintain much more focus and to stay with these deep, deep emotional and mental wounds. As these surface I stay with the deep heavy energy and just observe and with unconditional love and compassion for that damaged part of my own self. It is to do it when it comes up in the feelings and emotions. Can only be done in layers. These memories are painless. The pain was at the moments in time when the damage happened. You need to be determined to heal as much as possible, so as to be a much better you. Much more an authentic expression of your own soul. I follow my Heart, Universal Unconditional Brotherly and Sisterly Love/Light, compassion - Universal Law and Cosmic Law and Natures Laws to the best of my ability from my own perception and observation point in the human circle or sphere one finds self in. We are all unique and equal. We are all one on two paths - Dark and Light The 11 Universal Laws and the 11 Cosmic Laws. These are very well described in Standing Elk. now called, Golden Light Eagle who ran the Star Knowledge Conferences once a year from 1996 to 2019. More simply Put; Don't cause any harm or loss to all life forms. - Be a care taker of Love and Life. It is to pass the initiation(s) presented during the Dark Nights of the Soul. Or should I say, do our best and learn from our mistakes. This one really began in 1966. My dad died in June 66. I had contact for 10 days after that. Every day on the way home from work a light would noticeably fill the car and I felt his presence. Then came a love affair in the Summer of Love, 1967. It was real pure Love going two ways. The relationship didn't last long and I was devastated. We both were. Took me 16 years to come to grips with that one. We do chat from time to time. The work a day jobs lead me into the computer software business. I was on the ground floor and learnt how to program the 360-20s on the sixth one installed in Montreal. By the summer of 69 I was a Consultant on the road installing applications into different companies for one of the first data centers that popped up allowing smaller companies to have their applications computerized. This was the main skill that was a major part of a chain of events that changed my expression into the outer world completely. In 71-72 I worked for a company owned by three partners. This data center went broke and they sold probably 51% to a multi Billionaire. This fellow bought another computer business and merged the two together in the same building. Now there was lots of money around. As one fellow told me, you just need to catch his coat tail. Now this company was in the situations where partners were fighting for control and the money. They believed that they couldn't make the money without me. They firmly believed this as I now know long after it all played out. I was in meetings for three, four hours once or twice a day. Each side wanted me to cut the other side out. Even brunch meetings on a Sunday morning. hehehe - A real pressure pot indeed!! Took awhile, but I finally realized that in their minds I was the money and in a very real sense it was true, because this dude had 100s of companies on the Stock Exchanges. That is a lot of business potential sitting right there. Millions I found out under extreme pressure that I could not team up with either side against the other. I perceived it as a lot more money than needed for a windfall. Sharing seemed to be the only solution. Win win instead of win lose. I knew they believed I was the money. One day in the morning, soon after the abouve realization and knew what was going on I made the decision to get up out of my chair and walk across the computer room into the front lobby and went out the door. I went along the outside wall to the stairs that took me to the second floor where one of the partners was. I went up the stairs across the room into his office and sat down. I asked him for the phone number of the multibillionaire partner that owns most of the business I was working for. I was going to ask him to make a deal for a lot of money - LOTS. I dialed the phone number and waited. it rang once. it rang twice. before it rained the third time I sensed an energy come through the phone “A BEAST”, and undescribable in words - despicable demonic evil of great depth - Hiding - Controlling people in this world. In this case very consciously as I now realize. Deep into the Dark Occult and high up the ranks. I slammed down the phone. I got up out of the chair and started across the room and realized that my spirit had jumped out of the body and I had jumped out of my socks with the shock and awe of that moment in time. I didn't even know what I was going to say to him, no detailed plan. I just knew I was going to make a deal. Years later, I realized that this man was sitting in his office not expecting a call on his red phone. when it rang the second time, he not only wanted to know who it was but he had stretched his awareness, focus down the telephone line. I picked up the energy and at that exact moment as he was stretching for the phone. I put it down before he could answered. I knew exactly what to do, interestingly enough, because I was a systems and programming designer, programming and installing Business systems, like accounts receivables, payroll etc. I was trained on one the first generation of computers. The sixth machine to be in Montreal back in 1996. Late July 1069 was my first day on a new JOB!. Consultant, Systems Design and Programming. I had Business cards saying so … Way to funny now a days. That moment in time changed my life completely. These years leading up to it had already laid waste in the graveyard of Broken Dreams.This one was the final, a nuke leaving nothing, except the Self. All friendships fell away, except for the mother of my kids and a few others. All interests changed, like my taste for food, music, entertainment, conversations were now very different. New friends came along. Now I wanted to be much further away from all the corruption I was seeing more and more. I remember in the spring of 1973 rolling along with these changes. Every Sunday Morning, I would get it, get a coffee ect and then go and stand looking out the picture window at the street and the homes on the other side. It looked exactly the same physically, but my perception and feelings within had changed. I experienced this for 6 weeks in a row. I will never forget it, it is still like yesterday in many ways. I never regretted saying no to the wealth that was there. I became very detached to money and stuff. Much more on a simple lifestyle. Astrologically I had a few Major Cycles going on. Pluto - was Conjunct Mars and Neptune, Conjunct Progressed Sun. Pluto is Death and Destruction, Rebirth and rising out of the ashes. The Caterpillar to the butterfly. Neptune - was Square Sun. Neptune is very spiritual and very deceptive. Lije a butiful painting you just love. Then 6 months after the last pass's end date, the water paining has been washed away and the snake is seen for who and what it is at heart. If you let in the beautiful image, you get bit real good. Uranus - was Conjunct Mars ending July 8 1971 and Conjunct Progressed Mars began Dec 15 1971, 7 month overlap. Square Progressed Mercury. Square Progressed Sun. The Awakener! - Shock and Awe. 99.9% unpredictable. Staying alert when cycles like these ones, especially the Conjunct Mars can be quite dangerous. Unexpected accidents. It brings into consciousness possibilities that are new, fresh and exciting. After getting rid of some outdated activities. Out with the old in with the New. Saturn - Active 1971 to 1973 centering in December 1972, was a lot of Saturn - Square Progressed Mercury. Square Progressed Sun. Conjunct Progressed Uranus. Yes, These Character. He does not, does not, like change, especially to his ridge already established order. Being Conjunct Uranus, his structures are in for a major overhaul. Uranus, doesn't like order, it desires Freedom. I remember a six week period in 1973 while working a quite job, I would get up every Sunday morning and look out the window at the street. My perception had noticeably changed and how I felt about the neighborhood I was living in. A completely transformed experience. I became very aware of things that I didn't know before, a brand new perspective on everything. I am very happy and grateful for the awakening by walking through the dark night of the soul and passing the initiation - An expansion of Consciousness/Awareness - A Divine Blessing Indeed - Much healthier spiritually, mentally, emotionally and physically. Brand new dreams in life. FREEDOM from a lot of chains. This took place from the end of September 1981 to the end of May 1982, The Main battle was over, even though it didn't end till August 1991. He still did his thing, mostly from the background, front stage appearence were few. Memorial indeed. One of my dark side teachers in the past taught me to fight and awaken to my own abilities. This fellow was into black magic, especially Aleister Crowley, which I didn't know anything much about at that time. He used to summons demons up from the underworld and those kind of negative influences residing in the lower Astral world. Another demon carrier. This ended all ability to ever really get at me again, except by latching on to family members and loved ones to cause lose and harm, which would haul me into the conflict. In my own experiences with the dark side is that there are always more than one attacker and usually low morality and sleeping puppets which do run a lot of distractions, sometimes doing damage. They are unconscious of it happening. One night I was told, by a very dear friend living with the 3 us, that she walked into the living room and there he was sitting on the couch. She couldn't see his head. She was scared when she told me. I checked for this kind of thing in an Astrological Medical Encyclopedia by a Doctor who did the charts of all, most of his patients. Interestingly enough, under demons and demonic possession I found a 4 planet configuration that had to be above the horizon. Very rare configuration, never mind the short 2 hour window, for 2 days at best. I said due to possession, his head would be pulled into the lower Astral, therefore, now invisible. That was all the confirmation I was looking for to see if I could find such a thing.. This was a karmic situation from a past life or lives which my immortal self decided to deal with in this lifetime. He did hang and hover around right through the 80s until the family split up and his mission was accomplished. This was the second one. yes another demon carrier. this one actually told us that she was given the demon by an old lady when she passed away andgave it to her at 12 years old. She also said it was still with her, which it was. This bio between the light in the dark went on for about 7 years. It was very interesting time indeed, plus and minus. I certainly learned a lot and I woke up to a lot of my own abilities of which I am very thankful and grateful for. I remember one night at a party. It wasn't a rectangular room and it was quite narrow and it was a band and I guess it was what 75 people there. So I was at one end of the rectangular room. There was no one in the center and it was a bunch of people standing at the other end. BooBoo comes over to me and says; “Do you see those people over there come over here?” I said; “ yes” she says; “watch.” So she turned her Palm up so that her palm was face towards the people at the other end of the room and did that for about 15-20 seconds, then she walked away. Within 15 seconds three people from the other end walked right across the room and stood within a foot of my face. They looked very, very confused and didn't know what they were doing there. They stayed there for about 15 seconds and then they walked away. This is an example of the kind of power that she had that she could release others out of the palms of her hands. She would direct this energy at my root and sacra l chakras. I have other stories too. It is interesting as to how all these spell and focused energy works. I guess a lot could be written on this aspect alone. A positive solution, even for that one get together can be created or manifested. Deal with the sort of top demon and as long as it is happy or stopped somehow. I remember this in a old hotel that was haunted. Usually this old hotel was empty. 30 vacant rooms and two bars with dance floors. This one night it was about to explode into feisty cuffs. In this place, either the spirits wanted a fist fight or a dance party a lot of the time. Them spirits didn't like me there and wanted a fight. I could feel their arrows hitting my skin and I said to myself, as long as they don't penetrate and then I totally relaxed. 15 seconds later it stopped, the music changed and the party began. It was an interesting experience. I didn't realizes what was happening till it did. A very unexpected learning experience. I remember one Saturday night in February 1984 when it was a Leo full moon and we decided to have a party. how about 75 people came. there was a couple of characters, that wanted to come, but I knew they were troublemakers and they would cause a lot of disruption where the dark dancers they wanted to cause problems at the party. BooBoo would definitely would be there. One character came to the door about 2:00 in the afternoon before the party and he saved for a short time and left and said he'd come back. when I opened the door and saw him standing there I could vaguely see someone standing behind him, look like a shadow. I could feel that this was a promoter for the schizophrenic to come to the party and disrupt it. Behind these two at a great distance, was the headless man. playing with his magic she's disrupt anything positive that could take place that would get in the way of his goal. Neither of these two came to the party that night. one fellow fell asleep and something went on with the other fellow and both were just missed the party. All went smoothly as a result of people had a good time. It's interesting how these people have puppets and I'm not trying to put anyone down here you know we all fall into these traps of being puppies for different thoughts to come into our heads that aren't our own. Takes a lot of self mastery to be listening only to our own unique voice, so no criticism, put down or shame or blame is intended at all on what I labeled as a puppet. We are all One, We are all Equal. The cockroach came on the scene in 1981. she lived downstairs in the apartment below us. she is the only person I have ever met who showed an official card, like a driver's license, from a psychiatrist, saying that she was sane. I'm not trying to put her down or anything but boy! I never seen anything like that. Very funny character strutting her stuff on the stage of life. In 1982 she asked me to do her chart. So I gave her three or four books which some pretty heavy accurate stuff. I told her you can have them for about 2 hours and I'll be back down to get them. 2 hours later I go back down and knock on the door. She comes to the door and hands me the books and her eyes are the size of golf balls and the hair on her head was standing up on end at least an extra inch, maybe 2 inches?. Sure was up in the air, electrified. I guess she got a real shock at what she read about herself from what I pointed out to read in those books, especially one of them. This character, like all the others, is a demon carrier. They all have summoned up at least one demon, sometimes more like two from the underworld. the lower astral plane. I guess the question really is who owns who? I'll say the demon is in charge. I'll get to some very interesting information on this later. He was by far the worst, extremely well trained, psychopath. I watched him very closely and observed many things in his behavior and with the research into Psychopaths he sure fit the description and behaviors to a T. Astrologically: Pluto - The Planet of Power and Magic and the main planetary force in the Ascension process now well under way. They demoted Pluto in Astronomical standing to Tie-Chi, the focus away from its true significance in this now moment. I saw this Pluto Cycle coming in 1982. Pluto was going to conjunct my moon in Capricorn and Opposed my Saturn in cancer which are less than half a degree apart. This Opposition is a very strong aspect in my Naval chart. I wondered for quite a while,what was going to happen because I knew it would be extremely significant. I put it aside because it was like 40 plus years out. Interestingly, the Voodoo Master as I found out. I needed to know his birth time so I found it. it's within a degree of my Saturn in Cancer, and mom, who is in an intimate relationship with him has her ascendant within half a degree of his Ascendant in Cancer. so, the 3 of us went through a major Pluto cycle and others at the same time. 5 very intense years. I wasn’t allowed to know what was actually taking place. As much as I still really dislike this fact, it is a fact and I am 100% sure of it. This one was by far the worst. He had been extremely well trained in a few diabolical Dark Arts, by some very high up masters in the dark arts.. He was trained to sneak around, unheard and unseen. His hearing is very long distance, He could still hear you when you figured it was impossible. I was totally amazed and it really felt telepathically picked up. I told him to Fuck Off one day in my mind. He was in his truck, windows up, about to enter the driveway and swiftly turned and headed down the street. As usual, there was a lot of others who were attacking at the same time. besides all the people within the system and these medical and legal corporations and courts and police Etc, there was the dark arts tribal Circle on the reservation casting spells which had to be dealt with. along with this another story are the ETs whom I was involved with as I entered this. until well after it was finished when I finally was able to break some of the Astro chains and free myself. I remember one dark night. A new moon. I was looking out the window and couldn't see an inch. Then I saw what looked like a burning ember from a fire going up in the air then it turned and started falling. Then to my surprise it turned upwards again. I was shocked!. It was a red eye. I saw it again looking out across the trailer park. It was quite large just above the hedge bushes along the far side of the trailer park, close to a lamp post. One night while I was in the kitchen dealing with a issue, I was hit in the spine just below the rib cage, I felt and heard it snap. This wasn’t physical, un-stabilized my solar plexus and emotional grounding. I was out of balance for quite a while, I could feel it. The art war and kung-fu fighting. The Demon and it's carrier in the end. One day,it was very close to the explosion moment, where all starts to be known. It was around one in the afternoon and I couldn’t take it anymore. I got up and walked through the back yard and walking through the woods, till I would come out into a clearing I was very rattled and I noticed a ball of light to my right side about 3 feet away moving along with me through the bushes. Very quiet I was very calm again inside and continued to walk out into the open a ways where I sat down against a rock on the ground. Finally got rid of this guy in 2013. then came all the shenanigans after that involving court cases etc etc. This was very exhausting and went on for quite a few years and by the end of it I didn't have any energy left for anything. So healing time had begun as best as possible. To Be Continued... [ A Lone Wolf ] |